Recently my wife and I found out that our little bun in the oven is a girl. That makes for a whopping three girls and one miserably outnumbered boy. Thankfully my son is the oldest and, as such, he will be a very strong young man who must carry great responsibility on his shoulders in regards to helping daddy care for and protect his sisters.
When we first heard the news that we were having a girl via a piece of paper sealed in an envelope after an ultrasound scan from a friend, we were disheartened. We had been praying for a boy. We were not rejecting our baby, but disappointed that things didn’t turn out how we wanted.
It’s very easy in life to become disheartened when things do not go our way. Believe me! I am thirty-one years old and my wife says occasionally I still act like a spoiled four year old when I really wanted something my way, but didn’t get it.
It took a couple of days before we were able to get over ourselves and accept the gift given as crafted by our God. In truth, acceptance of God’s Graces and the crosses we bear is essential in the Christian life. How we carry ourselves in those instances indicates how mature we are in the Spiritual Life.
Knowing that I became disappointed when given a gift that I wanted a little different, I am reminded of how far I am from Christ and how capable I am in turning away from God’s Will.
It wasn’t until days had gone by and when I was snuggling my baby girl KenleyAnn that I finally thanked God from my heart for gifting me with another beautiful baby girl. A little tear formed in my eye as I reflected fondly on my joys to come rearing three daughters to be disciples of Christ. As much as I adore my wife and prize her for the good she brings to our Union as a woman, I realized, too, that my daughters will also be that good for me until the day God joins them to another man that He has crafted specifically for them.
Although I know I commit no sin in my albeit childishness of disappointment, I am aware that I failed to choose to see the good in my gift of Skylar. (That is her name – Skylar.) It is a slippery slope when we allow ourselves to wallow in immaturity, fighting against the Will of God.
Far better is it to trust in the only person who knows what is truly Good for you…the God of the Universe, whose greatness is beyond measure but has Loved you so deeply that you would be called by name, sacrificially rendered blameless for your sins, delicately formed by His hand’s in the womb, and by Him graced with the choice to live a life of Joy and Peace only found when we pick up our yoke, joining ourselves to Him on the Cross.
“For I know well the plans I have in mind for you—oracle of the LORD —plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you a future of hope.
When you look for me, you will find me. Yes, when you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me—oracle of the LORD —and I will change your lot; I will gather you together from all the nations and all the places to which I have banished you—oracle of the LORD —and bring you back to the place from which I have exiled you.”
Jeremiah 29:11, 13-14 NABRE